Stuuuuuuck

Ug, somedays i feel like i am trapped...its as though i am a caged animal and i have no control over what is happening around me nor to me. Somedays it feels like my cat even has more control about what is happening around her than i do. Too many things are changing yet at the same time not enough things are changing. I want to go away, yet i want to stay here, i like my job, i hate my job, i love my friends, i hate my friends, my family is great, my family is being terrible today. Seeeeeeee i sound freaking crazy. I really think i need to find a hobby that i fully enjoy and am passionate about. Maybe this will curb the stuck feelings i have. Somedays i feel so overwhelmed at absolutly nothing, i feel like i have worked really hard and i still have absolutly nothing! I feel like i have lost all of my true friends to bigger and better things, or alot to more terrible habits. I suppose this is all part of growing up. I'm tired of growing up...i just want to find a great boy, fall in love, make babies and have a puppy. Right now it feels like that is what is missing in my life....LOVE, love love. But i'm crazy enough to know that even when i have that i will want something else. Today i wish i was a cat.